Song Info
Genre
Charts
Peak #931
Peak in subgenre #478
Author
Justa Nobody/ HiFly
Rights
Justa Nobody
Uploaded
July 10, 2005
Track Files
MP3
MP3 3.7 MB • 128 kbps • 0:00
Story behind the song
Mostly written in my high school library. The rest finished & recorded during my usual insomnia.
Lyrics
Hook:
I don’t think you really realize
What’s going on here
I thought I made it clear
Sometimes, I’d just be f*** ing happy
If you would leave me
Leave me to die
I don’t want to try
I don’t want to try to kick rhymes
Unless I can kick them out my mind
20 times I wrote crappy lines in the last hour
Every inch of my mind’s devoured
In this game, like f*** in chess
I can’t see the plan straight
Get cornered, and f*** I’m at a checkmate
It’s great living everyday not knowin where
You’re goin
It’s not safe, these nights rollin over me like
A highway truck, 18 tracks on my chest
Wantin to release an album that’s my best
Got these feelings clinging to me like a vest
I’m tired of bein put to the test
I just wanna be put to rest
That’s why I overdosed
On these sleeping pills
Till these beats pierce my brain like
Construction drills
Caution do not enter, the mind of a psycho
I’m too clever for half these f*** s who mess with me
Tho I let it stress me
Why is everyday life like a pack smokes
It’s killing me and when I try to speak out I choke
Hook
So what’s, what’s been going on I can’t believe its another song
Cuz it’s been so long, not wanting to move on
Just wanting to be gone
Out this life, once again I grab a knife
Cuz the silence is too much
Fighting got me into a head rush
Cuz what’s going on, no one’s peeps no more
All trying to prove who’s strong
And at the end of the day, we say f*** em all
Cuz loneliness is a b***
Dying to write like I gotta scratch an itch
Or inject this into a vain, drag along this pain like
It’s been hitched
To my backside
Wanting to crush you all down n take you for the ride
So what’s wrong with my
Decision to die
You look at me like I said something wrong
Survival of the fittest why in the hell do I gotta be the strong
So f*** it, bust out n make one last song
For no one to listen to the words to and nod along
(F*** it I can’t do that yall)
Hook
Cuz I never am really f*** in happy
It doesn’t phase me (doesn’t phase me)
Anymore
Cuz I never know what’s going on anymore
I just, I just
Wanna drift away into this beat once more
(this beat once more)
Cuz I can’t do this anymore
One last verse, it gets worse
Every hit goes into my eardrums
Am I done (breathe) am I done (breathe)
Never have won, never am stunned
That none of yall know justa just begun
Rambling on, and on its like no one understands
No one can actually tell who I am
But everyone asks me to do everything
Everyone expects me to be listening
And all along I can feel myself slipping
What’s life for me now cuz it all seems to be drifting
Hook
